Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Only You can save me from myself.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Earlier tonight, I was so sure I was going to blog again for the first time in a long time. I was planning out my post and everything, because I felt it was such an important thing to share.

How important could it have been, if I can't even remember what it was I wanted to talk about?

Monday, March 02, 2009


Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh!

I forgot the post I was planning in my head this morning, so the one that should have come next will be first, instead.

This is a rather touchy topic, so I apologize if any sentiments are hurt, but a) I've become a bit desensitized and lost my old sense of modesty, I guess you could say {I'm much more open and, yes, mature, than I was a few years ago}, and 2) it's a topic that needs discussing in some way or form, especially because it's important to me personally.

Sometime last week, a girlfriend and I were hanging out and decided to grab a bite to eat somewhere. The day started out pretty cold, so I donned my trusty KU hoodie {which was purposely bought a size too big}, and thinking that I wouldn't be taking it off, threw on a shirt I've sort of grown out of {I've been meaning to clean out my closet for a year now, it just doesn't seem to happen.. I stand there and stare and stare and stare, but all the clothes are still there!}. Okay, sorry with the lame jokes.. Just trying not to let the topic of this post get me down. roar.

Anyway, it had gotten pretty warm, enough for me to become uncomfortable in my over-sized hoodie. I figured it was no big deal if I took it off for a while. Just long enough to walk from the parking space to Subway, get a sandwich made, and head right back. We get out of the car and walk across the parking lot, and hit the Starbucks. There are two men sitting outside at one of those little tables, and they look at us. A passing glance I understand, but these guys are looking. I'm sort of used to it, because this particular friend of mine dresses somewhat revealingly {by good-girl Indian standards at the very, very least}, so I'm used to males staring in our direction whenever I'm with her. But I was shocked to find that one of the dudes was checking ME out.

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

A Thousand Words

...Give or take a few ;)

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh!

I'm still trying to get used to my life. I'm very emotional, very excited, and very busy! I've got so much going on, it's amazing. I really don't feel like I've bitten off more than I can chew {excuse my cliché}, but I know I'm definitely not managing my time properly. For example, I have a week's worth of math homework due Friday, and I haven't even begun yet. I should probably be doing it right now, but.. Knowing me, I'll do everything else and then do the homework tomorrow! I'm trying to change this, I really would like to be on top of all my work and not worrying about it all the time.

I've got all my projects on my mind all the time! So I feel silly and can't really concentrate on writing a blog post. I figured, what're pictures for if you can't blog 'em? hehe

So here we go! A few of my latest Flickr uploads.

Ardaas ||, originally uploaded by TeraRoop11.

These are just my thoughts, so please forgive me if I am incorrect.

We know very well that Sahib Sri Guru Arjan Dev Ji Maharaj Sachay Patshah set an unparallel example in human history by accepting to sit on the hot iron plate (thathee thavee), and had hot sand poured over His head. We also know that by this shaheedi Gurujee taught us to live in bhana, and not use powers. Along with all this, we should also take a look at a little background behind Gurujee's shaheedi. Chandu wanted to take revenge after Gurujee rejected his daughter's rishta with Sahib Sri Guru Hargobind Sahib Ji Maharaj Sachay Patshah. This was done because Chandu uttered severely insulting words for Gurughar. The Sikh sangat of Delhi requested Gurujee not to accept any rishta with Chandu. Also, it was Chandu who ordered all the tortures on Gurujee. Now the way I see it, Gurujee accepted shaheedi just to uphold the honor of the bachans of His Sikhs. He suffered that unimaginable torture just for maintaining the dignity of the request of His Sikhs. This makes me think, if my Guru can accept this worst torture just for fulfilling the request of His Sikhs, how can we ever doubt such a Guru while doing Ardas? Wouldn't He listen to our Ardas as well?

Sahib Sri Guru Tegh Bahadur Ji Maharaj Sachay Patshah attained shaheedi to save Hinduism. This was another unparallel example in human history, where a "man of God" gave up His life for a faith totally different to His own, and infact even a lot opposite to His own. This makes me think, won't He save me if I follow His Hukam? He made the maximum sacrifice for those who followed a faith that was a totally different one, so if I live by His words, how can I doubt that He will save me?

Sahib-E-Kamaal Sri Guru Gobind Singh Ji Maharaj Sachay Patshah Kalgidhar Shahenshah sacrificed both His parents, all 4 sons, and His dearest Sikhs for people like us. He said "Panth vassay mai ujjarraan mann chaao ghanera", meaning "I sincerely wish that my Panth flourishes even if I have to get ruined". He gave it all up for people like you and me. So how can we ever doubt such a Guru that He won't listen to our Ardas?

Gurujee set an example for us in these 3 ways. There are countless others but my atom sized brain is mentioning only 3 here. He sat on the thathee thavee just to tell us "I do listen to you". He sacrificed Himself for another faith so that we are assured that He can alot more for us if we live by His hukam, so there He tells us "I will listen to you". He sacrificed His entire family, just to tell us "I can give up everyone/everything just for you".

Please forgive me if my words are not making sense. Maybe I've been thinking too much into this.

~ Mehtab Singh

This Shabad is by Sri Guru Gobind Singh Ji in Dasam Granth on Ang 94

ਤ੍ਰਿਭੰਗੀ ਛੰਦ ॥
thribha(n)gee shha(n)dh ||
Tribhangi Chhandh

ਖਗ ਖੰਡ ਬਿਹੰਡੰ ਖਲ ਦਲ ਖੰਡੰ ਅਤਿ ਰਣ ਮੰਡੰ ਬਰ ਬੰਡੰ ॥
khag kha(n)dd biha(n)dda(n) khal dhal kha(n)dda(n) ath ran ma(n)dda(n) bar ba(n)dda(n) ||
The sword hacks and breaks ruthlessly into pieces and fragments the hordes of fools. This vigorous (weapon) adorns the battlefield.

ਭੁਜ ਦੰਡ ਅਖੰਡੰ ਤੇਜ ਪ੍ਰਚੰਡੰ ਜੋਤਿ ਅਮੰਡੰ ਭਾਨ ਪ੍ਰਭੰ ॥
bhuj dha(n)dd akha(n)dda(n) thaej pracha(n)dda(n) joth ama(n)dda(n) bhaan prabha(n) ||
Its long (forceful) arm is unbreakable. Its awesome splendour overshadows the lustre of the Sun.

ਸੁਖ ਸੰਤਾ ਕਰਣੰ ਦੁਰਮਤਿ ਦਰਣੰ ਕਿਲਬਿਖ ਹਰਣੰ ਅਸਿ ਸਰਣੰ ॥
sukh sa(n)thaa karana(n) dhuramath dharana(n) kilabikh harana(n) as sarana(n) ||
It looks after the welfare of the Saints and pulverises the wicked. It destroys the sins and I seek Its refuge.

ਜੈ ਜੈ ਜਗ ਕਾਰਣ ਸ੍ਰਿਸਟਿ ਉਬਾਰਣ ਮਮ ਪ੍ਰਤਿਪਾਰਣ ਜੈ ਤੇਗੰ ॥੨॥
jai jai jag kaaran srisatt oubaaran mam prathipaaran jai thaega(n) ||2||
Hail, hail to the Creator of the world, the Saviour of the creation. My protector Scimitar, hail to Thee.(2)

uch dumaalarha., originally uploaded by TeraRoop11.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009


Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh!

I realized I basically have automatic blog posts if I used what I post on Flickr =p

I've been feeling very humbled lately.. And I don't mean my usual low self-esteem, lack of confidence deal.. I mean really humbled.

What did it? Hearing stories of modern day Gursikhs who have gone through so much and are doing so much.. And seeing members of my own Sangat put so much hard work and effort and love into a Seva I was blessed to be a part of.

Since I realized the feeling, it's just being added to on a daily basis.. I've been short on actual time to even write in my personal journal, something I need badly to rectify, because I want to remember this feeling and its causes, hold onto it as long as I can..

Thank you so much, Pithaa Jee.. I feel like I'm seeing through myself to something else.. There are things about this picture/post that would greatly trouble the perfectionist TeraRoop.. but this feeling is helping me to move beyond all of that..

I really hope it stays. Kirpa karo, Pithaa Jee.. please don't let me lose sight of You or Your true premis _/\_

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh!

Thursday, January 01, 2009

ਪਿਰ ਸੰਗਿ ਮੂਠੜੀਏ <3.

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

ਪਿਰ ਸੰਗਿ ਮੂਠੜੀਏ , originally uploaded by TeraRoop11.

ਧਨਾਸਰੀ ਛੰਤ ਮਹਲਾ ੧ ॥
Dhanaasaree, Chhant, First Mehla:

ਪਿਰ ਸੰਗਿ ਮੂਠੜੀਏ ਖਬਰਿ ਨ ਪਾਈਆ ਜੀਉ ॥
Your Husband Lord is with you, O deluded soul-bride, but you do are not aware of Him.

ਮਸਤਕਿ ਲਿਖਿਅੜਾ ਲੇਖੁ ਪੁਰਬਿ ਕਮਾਇਆ ਜੀਉ ॥
Your destiny is written on your forehead, according to your past actions.

ਲੇਖੁ ਨ ਮਿਟਈ ਪੁਰਬਿ ਕਮਾਇਆ ਕਿਆ ਜਾਣਾ ਕਿਆ ਹੋਸੀ ॥
This inscription of past deeds cannot be erased; what do I know about what will happen?

ਗੁਣੀ ਅਚਾਰਿ ਨਹੀ ਰੰਗਿ ਰਾਤੀ ਅਵਗੁਣ ਬਹਿ ਬਹਿ ਰੋਸੀ ॥
You have not adopted a virtuous lifestyle, and you are not attuned to the Lord's Love; you sit there, crying over your past misdeeds.

ਧਨੁ ਜੋਬਨੁ ਆਕ ਕੀ ਛਾਇਆ ਬਿਰਧਿ ਭਏ ਦਿਨ ਪੁੰਨਿਆ ॥
Wealth and youth are like the shade of the bitter swallow-wort plant; you are growing old, and your days are coming to their end.

ਨਾਨਕ ਨਾਮ ਬਿਨਾ ਦੋਹਾਗਣਿ ਛੂਟੀ ਝੂਠਿ ਵਿਛੁੰਨਿਆ ॥੧॥
O Nanak, without the Naam, the Name of the Lord, you shall end up as a discarded, divorced bride; your own falsehood shall separate you from the Lord. ||1||

ਬੂਡੀ ਘਰੁ ਘਾਲਿਓ ਗੁਰ ਕੈ ਭਾਇ ਚਲੋ ॥
You have drowned, and your house is ruined; walk in the Way of the Guru's Will.

ਸਾਚਾ ਨਾਮੁ ਧਿਆਇ ਪਾਵਹਿ ਸੁਖਿ ਮਹਲੋ ॥
Meditate on the True Name, and you shall find peace in the Mansion of the Lord's Presence.

ਹਰਿ ਨਾਮੁ ਧਿਆਏ ਤਾ ਸੁਖੁ ਪਾਏ ਪੇਈਅੜੈ ਦਿਨ ਚਾਰੇ ॥
Meditate on the Lord's Name, and you shall find peace; your stay in this world shall last only four days.

ਨਿਜ ਘਰਿ ਜਾਇ ਬਹੈ ਸਚੁ ਪਾਏ ਅਨਦਿਨੁ ਨਾਲਿ ਪਿਆਰੇ ॥
Sit in the home of your own being, and you shall find Truth; night and day, be with your Beloved.

ਜਾਇ ਬਹੈ ਸਚੁ ਪਾਏ ਅਨਦਿਨੁ ਨਾਲਿ ਪਿਆਰੇ ॥
Without loving devotion, you cannot dwell in your own home - listen, everyone!

ਨਾਨਕ ਸਰਸੀ ਤਾ ਪਿਰੁ ਪਾਏ ਰਾਤੀ ਸਾਚੈ ਨਾਏ ॥੨॥
O Nanak, she is happy, and she obtains her Husband Lord, if she is attuned to the True Name. ||2||

ਪਿਰੁ ਧਨ ਭਾਵੈ ਤਾ ਪਿਰ ਭਾਵੈ ਨਾਰੀ ਜੀਉ ॥
If the soul-bride is pleasing to her Husband Lord, then the Husband Lord will love His bride.

ਰੰਗਿ ਪ੍ਰੀਤਮ ਰਾਤੀ ਗੁਰ ਕੈ ਸਬਦਿ ਵੀਚਾਰੀ ਜੀਉ ॥
Imbued with the love of her Beloved, she contemplates the Word of the Guru's Shabad.

ਗੁਰ ਸਬਦਿ ਵੀਚਾਰੀ ਨਾਹ ਪਿਆਰੀ ਨਿਵਿ ਨਿਵਿ ਭਗਤਿ ਕਰੇਈ ॥
She contemplates the Guru's Shabads, and her Husband Lord loves her; in deep humility, she worships Him in loving devotion.

ਮਾਇਆ ਮੋਹੁ ਜਲਾਏ ਪ੍ਰੀਤਮੁ ਰਸ ਮਹਿ ਰੰਗੁ ਕਰੇਈ ॥
She burns away her emotional attachment to Maya, and in love, she loves her Beloved.

ਪ੍ਰਭ ਸਾਚੇ ਸੇਤੀ ਰੰਗਿ ਰੰਗੇਤੀ ਲਾਲ ਭਈ ਮਨੁ ਮਾਰੀ ॥
She is imbued and drenched with the Love of the True Lord; she has become beautiful, by conquering her mind.

ਨਾਨਕ ਸਾਚਿ ਵਸੀ ਸੋਹਾਗਣਿ ਪਿਰ ਸਿਉ ਪ੍ਰੀਤਿ ਪਿਆਰੀ ॥੩॥
O Nanak, the happy soul-bride abides in Truth; she loves to love her Husband Lord. ||3||

ਪਿਰ ਘਰਿ ਸੋਹੈ ਨਾਰਿ ਜੇ ਪਿਰ ਭਾਵਏ ਜੀਉ ॥
The soul-bride looks so beautiful in the home of her Husband Lord, if she is pleasing to Him.

ਝੂਠੇ ਵੈਣ ਚਵੇ ਕਾਮਿ ਨ ਆਵਏ ਜੀਉ ॥
It is of no use at all to speak false words.

ਝੂਠੁ ਅਲਾਵੈ ਕਾਮਿ ਨ ਆਵੈ ਨਾ ਪਿਰੁ ਦੇਖੈ ਨੈਣੀ ॥
If she speaks false, it is of no use to her, and she does not see her Husband Lord with her eyes.

ਅਵਗੁਣਿਆਰੀ ਕੰਤਿ ਵਿਸਾਰੀ ਛੂਟੀ ਵਿਧਣ ਰੈਣੀ ॥
Worthless, forgotten and abandoned by her Husband Lord, she passes her life-night without her Lord and Master.

ਗੁਰ ਸਬਦੁ ਨ ਮਾਨੈ ਫਾਹੀ ਫਾਥੀ ਸਾ ਧਨ ਮਹਲੁ ਨ ਪਾਏ ॥
Such a wife does not believe in the Word of the Guru's Shabad; she is caught in the net of the world, and does not obtain the Mansion of the Lord's Presence.

ਨਾਨਕ ਆਪੇ ਆਪੁ ਪਛਾਣੈ ਗੁਰਮੁਖਿ ਸਹਜਿ ਸਮਾਏ ॥੪॥
O Nanak, if she understands her own self, then, as Gurmukh, she merges in celestial peace. ||4||

ਧਨ ਸੋਹਾਗਣਿ ਨਾਰਿ ਜਿਨਿ ਪਿਰੁ ਜਾਣਿਆ ਜੀਉ ॥
Blessed is that soul-bride, who knows her Husband Lord.

ਨਾਮ ਬਿਨਾ ਕੂੜਿਆਰਿ ਕੂੜੁ ਕਮਾਣਿਆ ਜੀਉ ॥
Without the Naam, she is false, and her actions are false as well.

ਹਰਿ ਭਗਤਿ ਸੁਹਾਵੀ ਸਾਚੇ ਭਾਵੀ ਭਾਇ ਭਗਤਿ ਪ੍ਰਭ ਰਾਤੀ ॥
Devotional worship of the Lord is beautiful; the True Lord loves it. So immerse yourself in loving devotional worship of God.

ਪਿਰੁ ਰਲੀਆਲਾ ਜੋਬਨਿ ਬਾਲਾ ਤਿਸੁ ਰਾਵੇ ਰੰਗਿ ਰਾਤੀ ॥
My Husband Lord is playful and innocent; imbued with His Love, I enjoy Him.

ਗੁਰ ਸਬਦਿ ਵਿਗਾਸੀ ਸਹੁ ਰਾਵਾਸੀ ਫਲੁ ਪਾਇਆ ਗੁਣਕਾਰੀ ॥
She blossoms forth through the Word of the Guru's Shabad; she ravishes her Husband Lord, and obtains the most noble reward.

ਨਾਨਕ ਸਾਚੁ ਮਿਲੈ ਵਡਿਆਈ ਪਿਰ ਘਰਿ ਸੋਹੈ ਨਾਰੀ ॥੫॥੩॥
O Nanak, in Truth, she obtains glory; in her Husband's home, the soul-bride looks beautiful. ||5||3||

Hukamnama at Gurdwara Sahib Fremont on new year's day.

Pretty amazing - pretty perfect. Aside from the fact that it was read/sung so beautifully by Harpreet Singh. As soon as we finished saying Fateh after the Hukamnama, Bhenji and I turned to each other and... We both felt the same way. Somehow, it was just perfect as "the year's Hukamnama". I used to be pretty attached to this Shabad when I was younger, but I didn't know what it meant then. It means so much more to me now that I at least vaguely understand it.


Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsaa Waheguru Ji Ki Fatehhh