Friday, September 29, 2006

I'm so very saddened and disappointed.

It's really deep down, though, don't worry, I'm quite happy at the moment.

Waheguru Ji.. all's Your Will.


Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa.. Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh..

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

TeraRoop's a fool:

I am so amazingly blessed to know the people that I know

Waheguru Jeeeeeee

and guess what Brain, you inspired me to realize this

how was Spain? more importantly, where's my bull??

=D Waheguru! You are Amazing

dhandhandhandhandhandhandhannnnnnnn Guru Pyaarae <3


Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

A lot has been happening lately, but something in the public eye that really struck home was the drowning of three Gursikh veers.

There are threads on both popular forums, articles all over the news, and various posts by bloggers everywhere. Most of you already know what happened, but here are links to some write-ups and additional information about the three Singhs Harvinder Singh Ji, Satvir Singh Ji, and Tajinder Singh Ji:

Three Sikh Youths Drown -, this is where I first found out.

Three Young Gursikhs Pass Away in Lake District Tragedy -

Lake District Tragedy: Sikh Community Grieves for Youngsters - SikhSangat News

There are countless news articles published all over the internet, many are linked to in the posts on the two forums. Here, though, I'd like to direct your attention to Solarider's blog, where he has written up a post including many reference links, one of which leads to a set of pictures of the Singhs who are physically no longer with us.

A few of the forum users have also posted relevant {who am I kidding, Baani is always relevant} Shabads, which had a great effect on me. Here is one of them:

ਕਬੀਰ ਸੰਤ ਮੂਏ ਕਿਆ ਰੋਈਐ ਜੋ ਅਪੁਨੇ ਗ੍ਰਿਹਿ ਜਾਇ ॥
Kabeer, why cry at the death of a Saint? He is just going back to his home.

ਰੋਵਹੁ ਸਾਕਤ ਬਾਪੁਰੇ ਜੁ ਹਾਟੈ ਹਾਟ ਬਿਕਾਇ ॥੧੬॥
Cry for the wretched, faithless cynic, who is sold from store to store. ||16||

What would we do without Guru Ji..? hah.

It took a moment for anything to sink in when I read the post on DS. At first I feel as if my subconscious tried its very best to control every other part of me. I could hear myself soothing myself {strange eh?}, saying things like it's okay, it's what's meant to happen. You love Him, and you trust Him, right? So you should be able to accept His will, He knows what He's doing, everything's okay.

And then the dam burst. I don't really know what I was crying over. I didn't know the Singhs personally, and it wasn't so much that they had
died. I've lost people in life before, and later in life I couldn't dredge up a single tear over any of them. But when I read about these three veers of mine who will no longer grace Sangat with their physical presence, something grabbed hold inside me. Everywhere in the posts and threads and whatnot, the Gursikh writers are reminding us as well as themselves not to waste a single moment, not to waste a single breath, and to take the time we have here to do Simran, to think of God, the only thing that will ever come of use.

However.. I felt as if not only have I wasted time by not doing Simran, but also by not attempting to know and learn from the inspirational Gursikhs around me. I never had a chance to meet them.. but just like with the deaths of Bhai Parminder Singh Ji, Bhai Charanjit Singh Ji, and Bibi Rena Kaur Ji, it was the reaction of the Sangat who did know them that really touched me. I took notice of how many people had something to say about them, from people who knew them their whole lives to people who'd met them for a few moments, to people who'd only seen them from afar. This is the gift of Guru Ji to His Sikhs - even a Gurmukh's appearance can inspire those around them. Their Baanaa, their glowing faces, peaceful and humble, their sweet voices and kind manner of speaking. What has our Beloved not given us? Do we lack anything? Then why do we still continue to ignore that which we must do, and turn our heads away, toward other things?

Just as before when three Gursikhs I'd never known died, and news spread across the Gursikh network, I was inspired this time, too, by the inspiration others took from these three Singhs. Dhan dhan,
fifteen years old and people who knew him spoke only of his sweetness and willingness, nay, eagerness to do Sevaa.

So, somewhere inside, and somehow... I am happy for them. Only God knows if they are with Him or not, none of us can say.. but the legacy and the prem, the true inspiration they left behind with those who knew them, and even those who did not, is their Sevaa. It is their contribution to the Panth, to the Sangat, to Gurmukhs everywhere.

Their bravery and courage, their true prem for one another, will not be forgotten. Just as years later people {including me} become teary-eyed whenever Bhai Paramjit Singh Ji, Bhai Charanjit Singh Ji, or Bibi Rena Kaur Ji are mentioned, people will remember and be inspired by Bhai Harvinder Singh Ji, Bhai Satvir Singh Ji, and Bhai Tajinder Singh Ji.

Here is one post that really touched me, especially the quote Veerji has included in what he has written.

Waheguru Ji.. Waheguru Ji

I've decided not to include the other happening I was going to write about. Who cares about what the Pope said to offend the Muslims? I'm astonished at the state of our world, that someone respecting someone else is something to hit the headline news.

bhullchukmaaf karni Maharaj.. Tuhaadi murakh aulaadh haan asi.. saanu kissi cheej da ki pathaa?

Waheguru Waheguru Waheguru Waheguru

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsaaa Waaahheguru Ji Ki Fatehh

Sunday, September 24, 2006

notetoself: today's political speaker at Guruduara Sahib

g'night all
or g'day
or good something in between

it's so funny how we're all 8 hours apart.. {i can only think of two east coasters who visit this blog.. but those are rare anyway so y'all just dont count}

*sigh* schoolie tomorrow.


Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

Saturday, September 23, 2006



Happy Birthday, Papa Ji

I love you very much. I couldn't imagine having anyone else as a father - life would just be retarded without you as my Daddy {no offense to other wonderful daddies}

I know, I know, it wouldn't be like that, 'cause I'd be different too, but hush, I'm just trying to get this right =)

You've given me a lot. Yes, it was given to me by Pitha Ji through you, but as a mortal, I thank you for it all. I would not be the at least somewhat Sikh I am today if it wasn't for Guru Ji through you. You and I are so much alike and I am so conscious of it that if I were to lose you, I'd lose half of myself if not more. I look up to you more than you know, dear one, and I'd kill if you asked me to.

The cool thing is I know you wouldn't unless I already wanted to anyway. Cause we're just like that hehe

I know what you're going through.. and I know what you want to do, where you want to be. I want to do everything humanly possible to help you get that.

I know I've disappointed you a lot in life. I've never been the daughter I should be. Yes, you've been proud of me a lot, too.. but isn't that because of you and Mumma Ji anyway? Whatever I did to make you proud.. I learned from you, Papa Ji, and Mumma Ji. I'm nothing without you. I'm not my own person, no.. because I adore you, and I always want to feel and think what you feel and think. Most of the time it's naturally this way. One-fourth of the time it's because I'll give in and let go and agree with you {because we're both the same amount of right and wrong anyway}, and the remaining one-fourth is my rebellion where I'm just like you and refuse to give in.

I want to make you proud. I want to be what you want me to be, because you have my interest at heart, and you could never want to hurt me. I love you, Papa Ji, so veryy muchh, and I'm so very proud of you. We've had it easy, real easy, especially in comparison to others. But you, too, have gone through certain things in life that I wish I could erase, and take on the pain of into my own account. You're my inspiration, and you're my second brightest shining light {and I don't have to apologize to you for that because He comes first for you, too, doesn't He papa =)}

I'm always your LITTLE kid. always, always. My only regret is that I was born a girl, because if I was born a boy, I could stay with you a little longer. If I'd been born a boy, then I could do more things with you which I can't now because I'm a girl. But that's okay..

I don't know how to say what I'm trying to, but just know.. you're one of the most important people to me in this world. After Guru Ji I love you most {sorry amma}. I pray that someday I can make you soo proud that my disappointments won't hurt anymore.

Happy Birthday my silly daddy.. like me you don't believe in them but they don't hurt.. I pray with all my heart that you get what you're looking for.. I'd even give up my having it if you could only get this wish of yours.. because.. living without it, I know how it hurts.

I know you'll never read this 'cause you know I have a bloggie.. but you never read it =) you don't even know where it is hehe

I love you. =)

your daughter.. your jhallaa hehe remember you called me that on my first birthday and i started crying and ran to mommy.. and right into the camera hahah..

I love you =)

Waheguru Ji Ka KHalsa.. Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

p.s. i'll reply to all comments {on mine and your bloggies} soon. pwomise.

pps. sorry mumma ji..

ppps. still havent said what i wanta say


thank You Guru Ji.. thank You.

Saturday, September 16, 2006


please take a look and pass this around

mum told me about it this morning but i forgot by the time i got the computer late in the afternoon

anyway, glad Bhenji posted it

be careful everyone!

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fatehhh

Friday, September 15, 2006

Listen, Dear Friends

hir Dnu sMcIAY BweI ]
har dhhan sa(n)cheeai bhaaee ||
So gather in the wealth of the Lord, O Siblings of Destiny,

ij hliq pliq hir hoie sKweI ]1] rhwau ]
j halath palath har hoe sakhaaee ||1|| rehaao ||
so that in this world and the next, the Lord shall be your friend and companion. ||1||Pause||

mm.. must format bloggie in such a way that the top most doesn't drown out everything else

having my own domain'd be cool.. but what would i do with it?

there it goes.. wants vs. needs.



Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

mann_kaum_layee_qurbaan says:

'You will never find a person who reads gurbaani consider life "worthless" '

What does that mean? What does that mean?

Oh, but it's true.. because even when life came to its very worst, one who reads Baani reminded himself that the problem of being tired of life and separated from God is not solved by ending life, because it is this very life which is your chance to end the separation.

Can we say.. epiphany??



You're amazing. You're truly, truly amazing.

woohoo, no one beats my Guru Ji =)

waheguru ji ka khalsa waheguru ji ki fateh

p.s. thanks to dork for pointing out the obvious to a lost soul one night, who would've only elongated the time spent thus by taking their own life. you did an amazing thing, and i know for a fact that that still sort of lost soul is very, very grateful.


Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Maas - Flesh

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

Thought I'd do this - it's probably not very helpful at all as many people will most likely see all of these things on their own {with the exception of Vikram Singh Ji's video, perhaps - but even that would become popular on its own with time *hint hint*} - considering I haven't blogged properly for months.

My first encounter with any reason besides "Guru Ji said so" to not eat meat was when I ran into this post on {Veerjeeee update! college is no excuse =p}. The video is horrific. As you may note from the comment I left on that post, I made the mistake of watching it only a moment after a full meal. Fortunately, I am not disgusted easily, but I was quite upset. I'm no animal rights activist, but the video moved me to tears. The animals are terribly, terribly mistreated, it's a gruesome sight. You can also download it directly through this link.

A post on the abuse of chickens on DiscoverSikhi gives a detailed description about how they are mistreated and what kind of suffering they must go through simply because people cannot control temptation and like the way they taste.

Having eaten chicken in my very young years, I can personally say that it's not so amazing that one will die without it. At the time it was a novelty - we didn't consume any other type of meat, and the extent of our eating chicken covered McNuggets {yeah.. lol} - and it wasn't so special. Lots of non-animal foods taste way better. I came to terms with my flesh-consuming past long ago, realizing that upon being blessed with Amrit, my life-slate had been wiped clean, my sins forgiven, and that past was no longer a part of me. Seeing how horribly they are treated, however, it's one of those things I'd go back and change if I could.

Vikram Singh has done the great Sevaa of narrating and putting together an approximately seven minute long video based on excerpts from Baba Iqbal Singh Ji's {Baru Sahib} book
Sikh Sidhant.

Take the time out to watch this video - it's not even seven minutes. I personally think it's wonderful, not only because I myself am a vegetarian and wholeheartedly promote vegetarianism {veganism.. ehh}, but because it provides entirely competent and well researched insight to the consumption of meat and its saddening consequences. The type of facts that are in demand these days as people become more and more educated and grow faithless.

If not in the name of God or 'humanity', then with your own health in consideration. Meat's just not any good.

There is also some Viaakhiaa on Maas uploaded to Sarabloh's Keertan {some of you may recognize him from SikhSangat/DiscoverSikhi} which can be found here. Interestingly enough, the Viaakhiaa is of this Shabad by Sri Guru Nanak Dev Ji Maharaj in Raag Malaar on Ang 1289 - check out some of the Thukks:

ਮਾਸੁ ਮਾਸੁ ਕਿਰ ਮੂਰਖੁ ਝਗੜੇ ਿਗਆਨੁ ਿਧਆਨੁ ਨਹੀ ਜਾਣੈ ॥
ਕਉਣੁ ਮਾਸੁ ਕਉਣੁ ਸਾਗੁ ਕਹਾਵੈ ਿਕਸੁ ਮਿਹ ਪਾਪ ਸਮਾਣੇ ॥
ਗੈਂਡਾ ਮਾਿਰ ਹੋਮ ਜਗ ਕੀਏ ਦੇਵਿਤਆ ਕੀ ਬਾਣੇ ॥
ਮਾਸੁ ਛੋਿਡ ਬੈਿਸ ਨਕੁ ਪਕੜਿਹ ਰਾਤੀ ਮਾਣਸ ਖਾਣੇ ॥

SikhiToTheMax translates the first Thukk to mean "The fools argue about flesh and meat, but they know nothing about meditation and spiritual wisdom." Alright, that makes sense. Then the second line is quote to mean "
What is called meat, and what is called green vegetables? What leads to sin?" Here is where some questioning begins in the mind - the Shabad seems to be implying that there is no difference. Which also makes sense if you think about it.. because when one is a true Gurmukh, nothing makes any difference to him/her. They have no temptation or desire for certain tastes or things, so they will not desire meat, and even if they consume meat, it will be no different from a vegetable for them. The third line is then interpreted thus "It was the habit of the gods to kill the rhinoceros, and make a feast of the burnt offering." And the fourth is translated so: "Those who renounce meat, and hold their noses when sitting near it, devour men at night."


The next two lines are these:

ਫੜੁ ਕਿਰ ਲੋਕਾਂ ਨੋ ਿਦਖਲਾਵਿਹ ਿਗਆਨੁ ਿਧਆਨੁ ਨਹੀ ਸੂਝੈ ॥

They practice hypocrisy, and make a show before other people, but they do not understand anything about meditation or spiritual wisdom.
ਨਾਨਕ ਅੰਧੇ ਿਸਉ ਿਕਆ ਕਹੀਐ ਕਹੈ ਨ ਕਿਹਆ ਬੂਝੈ ॥
O Nanak, what can be said to the blind people? They cannot answer, or even understand what is said.

It doesn't make sense, then, does it? However, if one were to continue reading the Shabad {*nudge*}, things change a little. I take it to mean {in general, keep that in mind} that fools argue over the issue of flesh or meat, forgetting the importance of true faith and spirituality - forgetting the importance of Naam.

Whoa I just rendered this whole post useless =)

Do check out the rest of his uploads as well - the Viaakhiaa is ripped off of CD's and cannot be found anywhere else on the internet. There are valuable gems in the form of Viaakhiaa as well as Kirtan, and you can only benefit from them, so what have you got to lose?

I know a few people who are Amritdhari and continue to eat meat. Firstly, I believe the problem lies in the rehit - kuthhaa, halaal, jhatkaa, whatever you want to call it being considered okay. In Amrit Sanchaars everywhere, Panj Pyaaray instruct the brand-new Sikhs to avoid consumption of meat which is prepared in the above stated manner{s}.

Second, people use the argument that plants are living things, too. If we are allowed to consume fruits and vegetables, which live and breathe, why not animals?

I can come up with two extremely basic reasons as to why:

1) Plants don't have a nervous system. They don't feel pain. You could chop down wheat, pull an apple off a branch, a carrot out of the ground. The only effect these actions will have on any fruit or vegetable, any grain, is that the plant will stop growing.

2) Note: The following is speculation by Papa Ji. Everything is made up of elements. There are five elements, and nothing is without at least one. Plants consist of a very small number of elements, two or three, and it makes it less of a bad thing to consume this. Even Guru Ji tells us to eat only as much as necessary, and if survival is easy with a diet of plants, why consume animals? It makes no sense.

I dunno.. I just don't get it.

Anyway, please take a look at the links, and seriously consider what you read or watch. Just ignore what I wrote =)

From experience, I feel that these types of things only further motivate those who already agree with what is being stated, and have little or no effect on those who oppose them.

Sadly enough.

TR might just be back in action =)

*everybody runs away*

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fatehh !!

Monday, September 11, 2006

ਅਖੀ ਕਾਿਢ ਧਰੀ ਚਰਣਾ ਤਿਲ ਸਭ ਧਰਤੀ ਿਫਿਰ ਮਤ ਪਾਈ ॥7॥
ਜੇ ਪਾਿਸ ਬਹਾਲਿਹ ਤਾ ਤੁਝਿਹ ਅਰਾਧੀ ਜੇ ਮਾਿਰ ਕਢਿਹ ਭੀ ਿਧਆਈ ॥8॥
ਜੇ ਲੋਕੁ ਸਲਾਹੇ ਤਾ ਤੇਰੀ ਉਪਮਾ ਜੇ ਿਨੰਦੈ ਤ ਛੋਿਡ ਨ ਜਾਈ ॥9॥
ਜੇ ਤੁਧੁ ਵਿਲ ਰਹੈ ਤਾ ਕੋਈ ਿਕਹੁ ਆਖਉ ਤੁਧੁ ਿਵਸਿਰਐ ਮਿਰ ਜਾਈ ॥10॥
ਵਾਿਰ ਵਾਿਰ ਜਾਈ ਗੁਰ ਊਪਿਰ ਪੈ ਪੈਰੀ ਸੰਤ ਮਨਾਈ ॥11॥
ਨਾਨਕੁ ਿਵਚਾਰਾ ਭਿੲਆ ਿਦਵਾਨਾ ਹਿਰ ਤਉ ਦਰਸਨ ਕੈ ਤਾਈ ॥12॥

guess what, Brain?

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

I'm a horrid person. Unfit to live. I should have died at birth.

This Shabad is by Bhagat Kabeer Ji in Raag Gauree on Ang 328 of Dhan Dhan Sri Guru Granth Sahib Maharaj:
gauVI kbIr jI ]
gourree kabeer jee
Gauree, Kabeer Jee:

ijh kuil pUqu n igAwn bIcwrI ]
jih kul pooth n giaan beechaaree
That family, whose son has no spiritual wisdom or contemplation

ibDvw ks n BeI mhqwrI ]1]
bidhhavaa kas n bhee mehathaaree 1
- why didn't his mother just become a widow? 1

ijh nr rwm Bgiq nih swDI ]
jih nar raam bhagath nehi saadhhee
That man who has not practiced devotional worship of the Lord

jnmq ks n muE AprwDI ]1] rhwau ]
janamath kas n muou aparaadhhee 1 rehaao
- why didn't such a sinful man die at birth? 1Pause

mucu mucu grB gey kIn bicAw ]
much much garabh geae keen bachiaa
So many pregnancies end in miscarriage - why was this one spared?

bufBuj rUp jIvy jg miJAw ]2]
buddabhuj roop jeevae jag majhiaa 2
He lives his life in this world like a deformed amputee. 2

khu kbIr jYsy suMdr srUp ] nwm ibnw jYsy kubj kurUp ]3]25]
kahu kabeer jaisae su(n)dhar saroop naam binaa jaisae kubaj kuroop 325
Says Kabeer, without the Naam, the Name of the Lord, beautiful and handsome people are just ugly hunch-backs. 325

Waheguru Ji.. saanu maaf karo.

This Shabad is by Guru Amar Daas Ji in Siree Raag on Ang 84

pauVI ]
pourree ||

hir AMdir bwhir ieku qUM qUM jwxih Byqu ]
har a(n)dhar baahar eik thoo(n) thoo(n) jaanehi bhaeth ||
O Lord, You are inside and outside as well. You are the Knower of secrets.

jo kIcY so hir jwxdw myry mn hir cyqu ]
jo keechai so har jaanadhaa maerae man har chaeth ||
Whatever anyone does, the Lord knows. O my mind, think of the Lord.

so frY ij pwp kmwvdw DrmI ivgsyqu ]
so ddarai j paap kamaavadhaa dhharamee vigasaeth ||
The one who commits sins lives in fear, while the one who lives righteously rejoices.

qUM scw Awip inAwau scu qw frIAY kyqu ]
thoo(n) sachaa aap niaao sach thaa ddareeai kaeth ||
O Lord, You Yourself are True, and True is Your Justice. Why should anyone be afraid?

ijnw nwnk scu pCwixAw sy sic rlyqu ]5]
jinaa naanak sach pashhaaniaa sae sach ralaeth ||5||
O Nanak, those who recognize the True Lord are blended with the True One. ||5||

Comments caught up to, will post review of RKD soon.


Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa
Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

Saturday, September 02, 2006

RKD 398263496

wowie =)

yeah i just didn't feel like leaving that as the top post. a write up to come soon, against my will, but it'll be here.

g'night all, and have a lovely day all you opposite enders =)

yay go actors and ish aunty woohoo